I love you guys.

This week hasn't been very exciting at all until Friday. All I did was go to school, stay home, and be lazy. On Friday, I went to GPC and had fun. I learned about another parable, the one about the weeds and the crops. It kills me to think that most of my family isn't going to end up in heaven. They're the weeds that won't end up in the barn after being plucked. My mom, dad, brother, cousins, uncles, aunts, grandma. I love them, so, so much. It's depressing.. But I'll continue to pray for them. So enough of the sad stuff.. After small groups, we had praise. I needed it. The state of being in worship just feels so holy, and good. I feel that nothing else but God matters. Then after church, I went to Sam Back's house to stay the night. Sam wasn't back yet, so Grace and I made delicious fried rice while having a deep conversation. Kids our age shouldn't be going through so many problems.. It's upsetting. Then at around 1AM Sam came back. We talked about stuff.. Haha. Good and bad stuff I guess. It's funny how I can feel pretty comfortable about talking about things that I don't normally talk about to some of the people at GPC. I've only been going there for a couple of months, but I feel at home when I'm with these people. I feel different.

The next morning, Sam dropped Grace and I off to volunteer for Milal (밀알). We help kids with disabilities there. Towards the end of the volunteering, we did tae kwon do for exercise. I got so into it, hahahaha. (I'm a freaking ninja, you best believe it.) Then after Milal, I went to the mall with Grace Back, Michael Kim, and Brian Na. It was pretty fun. We went around stores asking for job applications. Poor Brian only got around two applications because of his age, Hahahaha. Prayer meeting that night was unforgettable. I've never been to one of the prayer meetings on Saturday, so it was quite the experience. I learned that everyone one of us has our own personal issues, even if they appear happy and joyful on the outside. In my prayer meeting group, I finally said what I've been trying to say, and it felt good.. Even though I was crying like a baby. I know now that people have my back.. And that I can go to anyone for help. And I know now that I can stop putting on a mask of fake happiness, and I can wake up and know that there are people that love me. I am not alone. Thank you God.